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I am me everyone else is taken.

I just stumbled upon a blog whose title is “I’m just me (everyone else is taken)” and I love the quote so I stole it ūüôā Hehe!¬† It got me thinking.

I’ve been really moody lately- what’s up with that?¬† Who knows maybe it’s the onions they made me eat!¬† I even told my husband the other day “I don’t like myself lately!”¬†¬† You know that feeling it’s like the saying “wherever I go there I am.”¬† So the question remains, what to DO about it!?

CHANGE!¬† Do you remember our discussion about change?¬† I’m very resistant to it, I’m married to it and I am living by it all at the same time.¬† I think we all are really, like it or not.¬† Can I change?¬† Can I forget about the onions and enjoy the blessings of the day?

My blessings are numerous really.  Four beautiful children and a wonderful loyal, hard working, supportive husband. A gorgeous house in the woods complete with vegetable garden, animals of all kinds, many many lovely friends.  I really have nothing to be moody about yet I find myself going about my day with a wrinkled brown worrying about my WORRYING!  Ack

Thank the Lord he doesn’t define us by our worst day, in fact I am even more grateful he doesn’t measure us by our BEST day.¬† Instead our Gracious Father sees us through alens of¬† mercy, he views us through the veil of the blood that flowed on calvary.

Thank you Jesus for seeing me Redeemed!

Thank you Jesus for seeing me Whole!

Thank you Jesus for seeing me on YOUR BEST DAY, the day you bore my sin unselfishly, most lovingly I am forgiven through your Grace!

Whew!

Help me to see others through that lens!

July 20, 2009 at 2:23 pm 7 comments

Nothing Part 1

empty nest

Nest full of Nothing

Isn’t it strange, when you are feeling a bit down that all the emotions of today, a week ago, a month and even years ago come flooding back.¬† In fact,¬†Naomiof the Bible was so overwhelmed by her circumstances that she changed her name from one meaning pleasant to Mara, meaning bitter.¬† I strugglewith circumstance, to the point of being an obvious pain the the “booy”¬† as my two year old calls it. When my brow furrows and I spend the hours after dinner frantically cleaning or tackling huge un-warranted projects it often brings questions…

It is my experience when someone asks “What’s the matter?”¬†one of two answers results:

  1. “I’m fine.” or virtually the same answer, “Nothing.”¬† It’s not that you intend to deceive but your mind is saying stuff like, “Tired chocolate dad clutch and baby.¬† Phone call under the couch and maybe my hair”¬† How can a sane person make any sense of that?¬† So what a person usually intends to say follows. “Nothing I can wrap my brain around at the moment.” Or “I’m fine without dumping all the garbage I can’t even sort in my own mind¬†yet.”
  2. The other answer, though it’s less often perceived as¬†deceitful is more often taken personally especially by unsuspecting, sincerely caring spouses:¬† Pause a moment while the questioned waits for the flood of thoughts to bump against the front of her brain and spill down into the central cavity of the brain where she can begin to pick them up one at a time, examine them and blurt out in no particular order just like the lottery lady on television, “I’m still feeling residual effects of the PPD, I really thought it would disappear one day and I would be rid of it but I’m loosing a lot of sleep over it,” deep breath while tears begin to well, “my dad being diagnosed with Alzheimer’s back at Christmas time is still heavy on my heart, I’m mad at God and I struggle every day to remember to thank God that¬†Dad is still around and can do projects and play with the kids, I didn’t loose him in a car accident or a fire (he was a firefighter for over 25yrs) but I’m fearful of the future because I can’t imagine life without him AND,” with a flood of tears mounting now (I never cry so now I’m getting mad that my Hubby¬†hit the jackpot, so to speak and I’m sobbing which will inevitable give me an unwanted headache) “the baby is sleeping really well now, in her own room but even though it is good I miss her and I lose sleep over THAT!”¬† Another gasp while I, I mean she ūüėȬ†winds up for the finale, “There are dust bunnies under the couch and that guy left a message for the third time about the clutch¬†AND I haven’t had a shower so my hair is greasy and uncooperative!”

I think if it’s all the same, next time I will stick to “Nothing!” and save myself the headache.

May 14, 2009 at 10:44 am 5 comments


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Many of you have been checking back for results on my sourdough creation. At the moment it is still a science experiment, but a happy, bubbly experiment. Never fear, recipes will be here! I did make a beautiful, moist and delicious loaf of sourdough using yeast and a myriad of other ingredients but I'm still trying to create something more user friendly. Wouldn't it be awesome to have a starter on the counter that you could add 4 things to and have a loaf of bread by dinner? Mmmm! Attempt #1 - rose well but resulted in a dense chewy blob Attempt #2 - rose ok but was thin and lifeless then fell and another dense (not so chewy) blob Attempt #3 - to the dogs! Attempt #4 - A sourdough pancake success see post under what's for breakfast gluten-free goof? Ongoing - I've tried several more times and am going to try a completely different approach on the bread starting this week. (Mar 18). My sourdough is still happy on my counter and it makes great pancakes but it's a lot of work just for pancakes. Keep checking! April Update: She is still kickin and I'm still workin on a yeast free, gluten free sourdough loaf! May Update: My sourdough "pet" has been dried and retired until next baking season. I've traded her in for a hotter model, the BBQ! :)
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